Beautiful

So, I know I haven't been on this blog for a while -- summer has gotten the best of me and has eaten me up, just like the 1,000 mosquitoes in my backyard!





I was struggling today -- a Monday -- with several things:





1. mosquitoes in my backyard -- I started complaining because all I wanted to do was tend to my garden, enjoy some quiet time out there picking green beans and getting the vines ready for cucumber and maybe even some pumpkins, but all I could do was swat at buzzing mosquitoes trying all their might to bite me -- it was definitely NOT an enjoyable experience! (I even had bug spray on and it didn't help one bit)



2. my 2.5 year old son has a new-found interest in using scissors and cutting anything from paper, straws, yogurt tubes...pretty much anything that is able to be cut, he will cut! He has asked this past week, "mommy, I cut hair?" "NO, not hair, we cut paper", "mommy, I cut kitty?", "NO, we cut paper". So, it shouldn't surprise me right, when I leave my son for 2 minutes as I use the bathroom -- that he had enough time to get the scissors out of the drawer and proceed to cut his hair. I saw clipped hair on his shirt and asked, "did you cut your hair?", with a smile he says "yes". Luckily it doesn't look that bad -- he's a boy and his hair is short, so no big deal....but, all the scissors are now up in a cupboard high where he can't reach!



3. I get a phone call from the security department of our credit card and they inform me that there is a questionable charge from yesterday for $98.14. I call my husband to see if it sounds familiar to him? "No"......so, now our credit card number has been stolen and someone (or some robot computer) attempted to use it on the internet to purchase something for $98.14. So, we are now cancelling that account and getting a new number tomorrow. If anyone knows anything about me, you know that I don't carry cash and I use the credit card for EVERYTHING.....puts a little damper on my day....at least I have a 1/2 tank of gas in the car and I did grocery shopping yesterday.



4. I need to complete some paperwork for one of my side jobs that I do -- home health therapy and I received an email telling me that I needed to complete some paperwork from my visit with a patient on 7/18/11 -- the Medicare paperwork is a NIGHTMARE at times and this is one of those times....so, I sit down and attempt to complete the paperwork....not getting paid for this time at all.


5. All my grey hair -- I mean really, I'm only 34 and I have a TON of grey hair! When am I going to find time today to color my hair -- I guess during nap time.


6. But, then if I 'waste' that time during naptime to color my hair -- when am I going to vacuum and mop and dust and do the dishes (and play on the internet?)


7. Then, there's that lovely stress for the past 1-2 months of my husband's job -- he leaves for work at 5:30AM and gets back home between 6:30 and 7PM and then works again at home on his work computer from ~8PM - midnight (maybe -- I don't even know what time he comes to bed, I'm already fast asleep!). When will THAT end? Will his job get better/less stress? Will he be forced out of a job because of the economy? It's all the unknown that is so stressful.


As I sat writing my Medicare paperwork and thinking about my Monday morning and how crazy it has all begun and just wanting to slow down a little and spread the 'stress' out over the course of a week and not all in one day, I hear a song:




and that's when I realized that:
1. I have a yard -- yes, a YARD and for that I am so grateful and blessed.....even with the mosquitoes and I have a garden with fresh veggies that my family can share and eat -- that's a wonderful blessing!

2. I have a healthy son who is developing on the right track and has learned a new skill -- cutting. He is so happy when he's cutting paper, so even though he cut his hair -- I am blessed to have a son who is learning and exploring -- a wonderful blessing!

3. I am so lucky to even own a credit card and be able to earn enough money to pay it off each month. I am even more blessed to have a credit card company that is 'looking out for me' and didn't approve that $98.14 charge, but called me first to make sure it was legit. And, yes, now it's going to be a hassle to change all our bills over to the new credit card and it's going to take time to make sure all our auto-pay companies have our new number so we don't get a fee when the old number doesn't work -- but, I own a credit card and that is a wonderful blessing!

4. Despite the 'over the top' paperwork that Medicare requires for each patient and each visit, I am blessed to have several options for work to earn money -- (to pay that credit card in #3) and it's good money -- a wonderful blessing!

5. Okay, so grey hair isn't that bad -- I have my hair and that's a wonderful blessing!

6. You know what, the cleaning will ALWAYS be around -- it's one of those never-ending chores, right? So what if I don't mop today or dust....I have a beautiful house and the ability to clean it and I am so blessed to be able to live here and pay my mortgage each month and THAT is a huge blessing!

7. Yeah, the hubby's job is so stressful, but we are so blessed that he HAS a job, even if it's one with long hours.....it's not always fair, but then again, neither is life -- nothing is fair. But, we love each other, we have a strong marriage and we are making it work -- THAT is a wonderful blessing! He is a wonderful blessing to me and our family!


So, despite the stress of the day and as I began to sit and doubt my life and question what karma was in my home....I realized after hearing that song, that I am beautiful and my life is beautiful and my family is beautiful and my job is beautiful and THIS DAY is beautiful!