A typical day...

I had a moment (okay, several moments) today -- I wanted to run away. I wanted to escape my current life situations in order to be alone -- is that even possible?  I actually was at one point raising my hands up in the air and repeating, "I look to you Jesus, I look to you Jesus, I look to you Jesus" when my 2 kids were talking on top of each other and each's need seemed like the most important to them at that moment and then Little Brother started screeching -- like all 'almost-3-year-olds' do when he was trying to get attention on top of his sister talking. 

 

Then Big Sister wanted me to teach her at-that-moment how to pull her (not long enough) hair into a pony tail.  We were in the middle of finishing showers with wet towels strewn on the floor, trying to get teeth brushed, pj's on, reading homework completed, Benjamin Franklin project tackled, cleaning the table after dinner, letting cats either in or out as they were scratching at the back door, and packing lunches for tomorrow.  Oh, and the Daddy in our house was home for ~10 minutes as he whisked through the house, changed clothes and headed back out to the neighbors for his weekly 'bags' game...

 

So, I repeated my "I look to you Jesus" mantra in order to calm my attitude, calm my spirit and help me to not physically run away..... I've been studying Hebrews 12:2 recently,  "fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God."  Now, maybe I know why that verse was spoken to me in a dream (about 2-3 weeks ago)....to calm me in moments in which I desire to escape!

 

Praying that each of you have peace and calm in your lives and that you aren't feeling like running away!